.Wednesday, December 16, 2009 ' 11:54 PM Y
yesterday is 16/12/09 after i wake up from my sleep at home went down to shi guan in a very down mood and donno why suddently have this kind of feeling may be is friend getting lesser and lesser that why ba.
i chu shi with terry,youjin,max,raymond,ricky and bishan boy they all
and hui fen never chu is kind of sad but although i got chu with they all but my heart is don want to chu de for all i think is help uncle leng train up his ppl that all than don need go sai guan for a while le but no one since to under stand me in a way all she think is i still childish but though i know ever if i leave shi guan to every one does not make a differce but at least they got some skill never mind ba.
i try not to treat gal so good but some time i am still hurt may be just get abit of distance is good for me and her may be some time i think i get jeolous i don no is i like her or she is very important to me i really not sure i am kind of confuse really wanted some room of breath to make a better me
ever since he and she know each other i am getting futher and futher away i think she one day will leave me and never find ever again cause i am not important to her and kind of sad lol
my best friend is no longer my cause i not her close friend any more and i know for now i am a person who can easily be replace by other friend no matter how good i try to treat her i just don no wat am i doing forget it ba
after training i suddenlly have a rage of fire in my heart is it because my thing start to get closer and closer but donno why in some way is just so fire up wanted to hit some one but would not
find a person really lost want to find some to talk she is not longer with me any more lol
and i started to train the dragon and half way max and youjin go already i really stress up than started to train again but the dragon was like shit really donno wat to say any more
and i start shouting want punch ppl at that time too bad the one who shout back is she if got other ppl who shout back may be a good thing lol i know now why ah lee can be so stressful when he take over shan yi that time is wat we promise to wait for him at shan yi till he is back though a lot of ppl cannot do it but i think i have on my way to finish wat i promise
ok update later ba the rest
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